I thought she'd at least manage to talk to me, but not a single answer in almost two years. Jennifer thought she probably won the battle or if this is some battle, all I wanted to do was talk to her, but I don't think that's much of an option anymore. I can't believe I still have this thing. I know for a fact, that you abandoned me and are leaving me for dead Sophie. Not to mention the fact that you gave up, probably moved on, which goes against all the sensibility and honor I have. I tried many times and points of contact, I even gave up my pride and asked others for help, so many people... And you ended up treating me like Jesse, with your lies, that's all I know. It took a long time to figure out, but maybe you're not real, like more to say you aren't a real person.. no address.. no picture.. just excuses. Not allowed to talk to your friends or some crap like that.. I don't know anymore, all I know.. Is that Jen's wedding was more important than my birthday... I shouldn't have let you gone to that stupid thing, and I regret meeting you, you're probably the worst thing to happen to me. All I wanted was answers, I couldn't even get simple answers. So you can hide behind a screen, and use the excuse that you're shy and nervous, that isn't quite justified when I trusted you that much. That thing about private information.. there's noone that is psycho enough to search you up for no reason. Jen or you or whatever was just paranoid. You'd think I hate you, but I ended up hating myself for believing in something so stupid. In any sense I just knew this would happen, forgetting is bitter sweet?
7/5/2008 7:26:15 AM Simon Sophie o.o But Jesse.. might be on
7/5/2008 7:26:42 AM Sophie Simon he isn't on msn ;o
7/5/2008 7:26:44 AM Sophie Simon so it's ok
7/5/2008 7:27:04 AM Simon Sophie He isn't?
7/5/2008 7:27:06 AM Simon Sophie How do you know?
7/5/2008 7:27:12 AM Simon Sophie o.o...
7/5/2008 7:27:13 AM Sophie Simon and hrm anyways it'd be hard for him to find me even if he was o.o
7/5/2008 7:27:37 AM Sophie Simon I deleted him from friend list and quit the guild ^^;
7/5/2008 7:27:52 AM Sophie Simon hrm well he's still on my contacts but blocked
7/5/2008 7:28:16 AM Sophie Simon since you told me it'd be good if I eventually talk to him and get over it ^^;
7/5/2008 7:28:30 AM Simon Sophie o.o..
7/5/2008 7:28:40 AM Simon Sophie So you.. went on?
7/5/2008 7:28:49 AM Sophie Simon it isn't something I really wanna do
7/5/2008 7:28:51 AM Sophie Simon went on? o.o
7/5/2008 7:29:20 AM Sophie Simon TO?
7/5/2008 7:29:30 AM Simon Sophie o.o yush
7/5/2008 7:29:37 AM Simon Sophie To have deleted him
7/5/2008 7:29:38 AM Simon Sophie you know?
7/5/2008 7:29:47 AM Sophie Simon not yet o.o
7/5/2008 7:29:56 AM Sophie Simon hrm I did that when he dumped me
7/5/2008 7:30:02 AM Sophie Simon and I told him I'd do it
7/5/2008 7:30:21 AM Sophie Simon since I didn't want to talk to him and I told him I wanted to forget
I didn't dump you, you left me, and you don't even have the pathetic courage to show up when I need you. Anyway this is my last semester in school, I don't have the money anymore since I kept failing my classes to complete college, though I haven't told anyone yet.
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